What deadens us most to God’s presence within us, I think, is the inner dialogue that we are continuously engaged in with ourselves, the endless chatter of human thought. I suspect that there is nothing more crucial to true spiritual comfort . . . than being able from time to time to stop that chatter …

Telling Secrets – Frederick Buechner

I didn’t have to read this a few mornings ago to know it is true.  Since I am living with many “what if” kind of things — maybe that is always true– the conversations seem more pervasive.  Most of the time they are not about the worst thing or even the best things, the conversations are more about if she says, I’ll say  or maybe …

What is telling about the conversations for me is that they are all about me; what I will say, how I will handle …, how I will answer…, I have or even I will.  I am the one in charge even though I don’t want to think that is true.

What would it be like to pay attention to what I am doing in the moment that includes the presence of God within me and surrounding me?

What would it be like to let things be?